I have a blog that no one reads. No one even knows it exists. The exhibitionist basis of this blog appeals to me knowing that no one I know will ever read it, but someone will. And maybe it will change things.
I grew up having mountain top experiences. That's how they described them at camp. That spiritual high that you get when you have a week-long God encounter. It's intense. I've had plenty. March was another good one. The City. Who can resist precious children who have been to Hell and back. But they just keep smiling and loving. Their love is so pure and mighty. It's forgiving and perfect.
I'm trying to decide if I should/can go back in August. Is there really a decision to be made? I have vacation time, I can raise the money.
I think I'm more worried about my long term life goals with this non-decision. I'm trying to join the Peace Corps. That's huge. In general and just for me. My problem is that I know it'll be a nonstop two year mountaintop experience. Am I ready for that? Do I need to be?
Is going to the City going to change my life plans or goals? I'm already so inlove with those children and I've only been once. Will going again turn my entire world upside down? I have the feeling that it could. That it will. I've already thrown around the idea of either interning there for a while or doing my PC service in Mexico (which would be R-O-U-G-H).
Oh! That You would bless me and enlarge my territory!
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